365 days of blogging – someone who made you proud

And we are all caught up! Sorry for the missing days.

Someone who made you proud.

There are many people in my life that make me proud. If I could write about them all then I would be here all day. The one person who continues to make me proud with his progress is my eldest son.

Anyone who knows Roo when he was at nursery would know the challenges I would face in a daily basis. He was very timid and anxious, also cautious about what he was doing and where he was going.

At nursery he was completely different, but at home he was somewhat more withdrawn than the rest. He wouldn’t accept criticism very well at all and he would cry at the littlest on things. This gave me so much anxiety about moving him to big school.

When the time rolled around to look into where we wanted to send him, I based everything on how he would cope. “This is too small he won’t like it”, “there’s too many people in this classroom he might not find it easy to make friends”, “none of his nursery friends are going here” and so on. I had to basically bite the bullet and just go with my gut instinct.

I was so happy when he got accepted into the school we wanted for him. Choosing his uniform and picking out his school bag and shoes gave me such a lump in my throat and a tear in my eye. I couldn’t quite believe my eldest was going to school!

When the day came that we packed his book bag and filled his water bottle for the first time I was running on empty. I had been up and worrying for days and nights in end for this day, hoping my beautiful little boy would fit in or actually enjoy himself. Little did I know I had been preparing for the exact opposite.

As we drove down the road to his new school, he sat in the back of the car and sung “a million dreams” (from the greatest showman) without a care in the world. The crippling anxiety and the nervous little child I had just a few days previous had gone. Left there was a bright little boy with the world at his fingertips itching to go to school and make the best of what he could do. I cried silent tears and took him to the school gates and in that moment I knew my life had just changed forever. My baby was growing up, it had happened quicker than I could have ever imagined right under my nose.

Within his first week at school I had a completely different child. He was so positive, friendly, loud, eager and excited to go to bed and wake up each morning to go back to the place he loved. He talks excitedly about his friends, lessons and teachers to this day and I know he will continue to do so. My eldest baby has grown from the gorgeous little newborn with the brightest brown eyes and smile to the quiet toddler who used to cuddle up on the sofa with me and his blanket watching movies, because he knew that’s where he felt safe, to this confident little boy that spent his days and nights looking forward to learn more and more at school.

He tells me all the time that he’s being the best big brother to the smaller ones so they can go to school and be like him. He wants to set an example, even if he doesn’t quite realise or know that’s what he’s doing. This change in behaviour happened literally within the first week and I genuinely am so so proud of him every single day. He is passing his milestones with passing colours and winning his little yellow certificates of achievement with pride.

This blog posts actually comes in handy because I know a lot of people who are receiving their school placements this month. My only piece of advice to you would be to seriously enjoy the time you have with them now. You don’t realise how much you miss them when they are gone every single day. Don’t stress overly much on the little things. They don’t need the most expensive bags or shoes. They just need to be happy and comfortable. If you didn’t get your first choice then please don’t hesitate to fight for what you want or just try and see if this school actually fits for you. A lot of children do move around in the first terms and you can enquire about moving if that’s what you really want.

But this blog post is dedicated to you Roo. Mummy loves you more than you will ever realise. Thank you for making me the person I am today, a mother, will so much love and pride in her heart for her three little sons.

KT 💙